Dear Diary,

Today started out kind of crazy.  I woke up to my sister calling me telling me that the dog we gave her was sick.  We just had to put our puppy down on Saturday because he had Parvo.

R.I.P.
Lil’ Boy

We Love You!

We had to give our dog Cinnamon to my sister because when a dog has Parvo, you have to keep all other animals away from them.   Even though Cinnamon obviously had her shots so that she wouldn’t get it, the vet advised to remove her from the house just to be sure.  Well, my sister called and said she saw blood in Cinnamon’s stool.  That is one sign of Parvo.  I instantly started to worry.  But, when my sister took Cinnamon to the vet, she only had worms.   It’s not good that she has worms, but I feel very happy that it was not Parvo.   I hate that I had to give them up.  They got along wonderfully.  He looooooooove her and she looooooooooooove him.  I miss my babies.  The big one is Cinnamon.  She is a red nosed Pit looked very intimidating even though she is the most loveable dog on the face of the earth and would not hurt a fly.  I don’t have a picture of her face, but I will see if my sister will take one.  Cinnamon tried to attack my sister’s dog for a few days.   But, hell, her dog, Cheyenne, (who is also a Pit) damn near bit Cinnamon’s snout off when they first met.  You would try to get her back too.    It’s going to take a while for them to get used to each other, but I pray that they do.  I still feel like, as long as Cinnamon is still in the family, everything is OK.  I just wish we could have saved Lil’ Boy.  That was my baby! But, the one thing that makes me feel better, is that I know he is not suffering anymore.  Because at the end, it was really rough.  Ok, I have to move on to another subject.  I’m still dealing with that and it hurts like hell.

Me and my guy friend also had a little drama.  He has some problems with his lawyer.  But we got it all settled, so most things in my life are at least beginning to straighten up now.  Now, if I could just get my family life together, everything would be good.  I’ll write more later.   Only half the day is gone and I know with the way my life works, by the end of the day, more drama will come.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me today.   I’m just feeling really “blah”!  I’m not angry or anything, I’m just not feeling too much of anything.  Kind of like I just wanna be by myself.   Hopefully, I will come out of this soon.  I’m eating my lunch now and at 4:00, I’m going to workout while I watch Oprah.  Then, I have to fold up a load of clothes, put clean sheets on the bed, hang up another load to dry, and wash another load.  I will be glad when I can get my dryer from my sister’s house.  This complex doesn’t have hook-ups. So, it takes longer to dry.  But, such is life!  BBL (be back later)

Ok, I’m back.  I really worked out today and I’m not finished yet.  Check out the exercise log and see how much I did today!   YEAH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here are my eating journal thoughts!

I didn’t finish eating breakfast.  I was not really in the mood to eat.  I went through a little drama this morning, so the only reason I ate was because I knew I had to.  I’m going to wait to take my vitamin and diet fuel at lunch.  I was surprised again on the point value.  Who makes this stuff up anyway?  Well, another 5 point breakfast, but I’m going to the store in a couple of days to get a little variety in what I eat.  Luckily, most of the foods I like are naturally low.  That’s a good thing.  I drank my water after I walked.  20 oz down and 44 more oz to go. Just feeling kind of “blah”. Didn’t eat.  Just feeling kind of blah right now! This might not seem like a good snack, but I actually like fresh veggies. I drank 20 more oz.  of water.   So, only 24 more to go.  10 points total so far, I still have 27 more allotted for the day.  That’s good! I think I will have salmon tonight.  No real feelings about this meal.. Not really hungry.   Only 4 mere oz. to go! This was sooooooooooooo good.  I haven’t calculated the points yet.  I will be so disappointed if I went over.  I have 27.  I drank 20 more oz.  So, I’m actually over my 8 servings! Pray for me while I go check my points! Well, it’s actually not too bad.  I’m still well in my range! I just can’t have my peaches that I looooong for. But, that’s OK.  I will survive. (singing the “I’m so proud of me” song)  I got to eat my peaches.  This might work after all! It’s OK.  I waited too late and I would be too hyper if I did take the diet fuel.