How I feel today:

Dear Diary,

I just finished watching BET’s The D.L. Exposed (Down Low).  Now, I don’t know if anyone else saw it or not, but this alone will make you lock your legs together. Not that it’s anything new or anything, but I like living, however hard it may be and I just don’t wanna get caught up.  Now, I know that alone won’t make me stay AIDS free, but I can tell you one damn thing that will.  I don’t have sex anymore….period!  See, I’m one of the last few “good girls” when it comes to laying down with someone.  If I don’t love you, you are NOT getting my poo-nanny.  I don’t believe in casual sex! PERIOD!!  I have been celibate for a year now and in the last 6 years, I’ve only had 1 sexual partner, and you better believe I was in deep love with him.  But, being in love with someone won’t stop me from getting it, but if I lessen my sexual partners, then I lessen my change to be infected.

I don’t know, I just don’t know how people separate sex and love.  I used to think that it was me who was crazy because everyone else believes in casual sex.  But, you know what….I know now that they are the crazy ones.  I still believe that, I am the most precious gift that I can give any man and I ain’t just giving it to just anyone.  Now, me and BOB are best friends.  BOB is my “battery operated boyfriend”.  Now let me tell you, I am the best, safest sex I can have.  And, I’ll tell you something else, I don’t have to tell him to speed up, slow down, right there, move to the left a little, move to the right a little and when I’m done, he doesn’t ask to be satisfied.  How much better can you get? And, when he gets tired, I pop in 2 more batteries or plug him in and he’s brand new. 

Ok, I’m going to get off my soapbox….