Dear Diary,

I can’t go visit Beezie yet because of me not being a blood relative.  What the fuck kind of shit is that?  I am so fucking lost right now.  I really need to see him.  That’s the only thing I really have to look forward to, and they snatched it right from up under me.  Until he gets to the place where he will be until he gets out, I cant see him.  My God, how much more can I take alone?  We were not meant to be in this cruel, fucked up world alone and here I sit, by my fucking self.  I need at least one person that I can touch who is totally in my corner.  I’m not greedy.  Just one.  Just one on my side.  Just one fucking shoulder to lean on.  How the fuck can I keep being the shoulder for Jae and him when I don’t have a shoulder to lean on?  How can you keep uplifting people when you are so fucking low yourself?!!!  FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!!